its hard for me

just last night i had this horrible heart break... i wanted things to work out between me and this person... but i dont know i guess it wasn't meant to be. im tired of crying over somebody that isn't worth my tears. i've been heart broken before i thought he was different. but he turned out to be the same as every other guy =(.. it hurts but i will over come this. i pray that GOD put a true man in my life. i don't want to be alone any more. i don't wanna feel that loneliness any more. i know GOD has a man for me, i just have to be patient and have faith that this man will come for me.

every day troubles

Every day is hard for me. I struggle with school and keeping up with eveything that needs to be done. Like cleaning my house, keeping u p with home work taking care of nephew. I love him more than anything and i would do anything for him. Old habits try to come back but i can't let them i can't mess up this person who i have become. I am stronger than before .But each day i try my best to put a smile on my face whether it be real or fake. I know i have these struggles because God is trying to make me a stronger woman. I have faith that no matter what obstacle comes my way, i will over come it. Sometimes the only thing that helps is writing. I write because it relaxes me and lets me express my self in a way were i can't do it verbally.  My nephew is the reason why i try my hardest to be a better person. i want him to be proud of his tia when he gets older. My family is most important to me. I'm tired of letting my parents down. i want them to be proud of me again.But most of all i want to be proud of myself.